Where have I been...

Well for the few - but very dear and special - people that read my blog I am sure you have been disappointed in my lack of blogging and to those people I am sorry. I guess there is no real excuse as to where I have been other than to say I have been here but my mind/head has been else where. As you know from my last post I have been sick with a cold and that is the truth but oh how I wished it was more than a cold - maybe something along the lines of morning sickness or something associated with a baby but yet another month goes by and I'm not pregnant and my heart breaks all over again. I know in my heart when the time is right God will bless us with a baby but I also feel like now is the right time - but as God keeps reminding me my time is not His time besides His time is always perfect. In other news my husband and I have been living here in my home town of Cambridge for a year now we moved here last April when my husband was given a really good paying job in the city. So we made the big move - well big for my husband not so big for me - to the "city" as people from Hunstville call it. It was nice for me to be back in my home town, or atleast I thought it would be. I love being close to the mall and being able to run to Winners and Home Sense (which is like Ross, TJ Maxx in the states) any time I want but I quickly found out moving back home is lonely. Being gone for 5 years I have changed and my old friends have changed and quickly we (my husband and I ) became lonely for our friends back up in Huntsville (its about 3 hours north of my home town and it is where my husband is from). Moving here was also a big adjustment for my husband as he has never lived anywhere south of Huntsville (he is a northern boy at heart always lived in the north) He quickly enjoyed his job and especially the big pay checks and we both were excited as to where God was going to lead us from here or why he has placed us here.

Its been a few months now that both my husband and I have felt like our time here is over like there is more out there for us and that being here was for a season. I needed to get away from Huntsville for health reasons and I needed to be close to my parents and needed their support along with my husbands and my siblings to get well. And I did get well and I am trying to stay well - so I say all this to get to my point. My husband was offered last week a job back up north as an assistant golf pro at a really nice Golf Course up there - and we were so excited but we were slow to get our hopes up in case it fell through. Everything seemed to be working out - he would be making more money then his job here which would obviously be a plus, we found the perfect house for us and a great price and then Monday he got the call that they want him to start next year like the season of 2010!! so that was really disappointing to here and discouraging. So now where are kinda at the point of throwing our hands up and asking God "what next" what is His plan for us. Our friends we know are disappointed as we are too, we are so heart broken over not getting pregnant and we really thought this is what we where to do and maybe God still wants us back there but not doing that job I dont know. But I guess in a nut shell thats where I've been lately. With not alot to say but alot on my mind. Right now Im just doing alot of praying and that seems to be all I really can do because after all its His plan we just live it out.